Life is a glass, and there is water in that glass. We have all heard that phrase before. Sometimes, the glass is half empty, sometimes it’s half full, but nevertheless, it’s all the same. It’s a glass cup, and there is water, waiting to be consumed.
I’m getting married in 9 days. It’s crazy when I think about it! I was that girl on the mission that thought that I would never get married. It wasn’t my thing. Ya, it’s a nice thought, but things are too scary things in the world, and I just don’t want to deal with the drama. It’s too much.
I was very wrong. I’m getting married to an amazing guy, one who has been there for me for years, and especially this year. There are days that I’m shocked that he still wants me around, that he still cares for me, because I’m kind of a nut. He is strong for me when I’m not myself, when I’m depressed, when I’m angry at the world, at the people around me, at the situation that we are in.
I consider myself a realist, though people may think it’s pessimism. Maybe I’m a little bit more on the pessimistic side nowadays. I live in fear a lot. It’s hard not to sometimes, when the biggest thing that I’ve feared has already been realized; when one minute, my life was perfect and normal and happy, and then literally the next minute, it was flipped upside down; four people that I loved more than anything else on this planet were gone in an instant, and I didn’t even get to say goodbye.
For me, it’s really hard not to live in fear. Fear takes over me, causing extreme anxiety attacks, causing the littlest things to push me over the edge. It eats at me, making me expect the worst sometimes. At times, it even gets me to a point where I am too afraid to try anything new, because what’s the point?
And this guy is the absolute opposite. He tries because to him, failure is not trying at all. He puts himself out there because why not? “Life is short, so try things” is his philosophy.
Questions to Ponder:
- How does gratitude help you have the perspective to keep going?