I love flowers, especially spring bulbs. I find great joy in seeing the tiny green leaves pushing up through the ground. It signals to me that I made it through the winter and spring will be here soon. Jake died in January and for the last 10 years I have suffered with seasonal depression. I love warm sunny weather! I have found a lot of different things that have helped me learn to cope with the seasonal depression so it has gotten easier each year. The sign of the spring tulips and daffodils in my front yard always bring a sigh of relief that it’s over, and I will soon be outside again!
This year when my daffodils were in full bloom I had a life lesson to learn. We were pulling up to the house and my son said to me, “Look Mom, all your flowers have bloomed, they look so pretty.” I am ashamed to admit to my response, “I can’t even appreciate them; all I see is the absence of the beautiful pink tulips that should be in full bloom too.” It wasn’t a day later, or even an hour later that I learned this life lesson…it was literally the moment those words left my mouth.
When I looked at hundreds of white and yellow daffodils (one of my very favorite flowers) I didn’t see the beauty in them. They were perfect and beautiful just the way they were. All I saw was what was lacking. I had a “plan” for my flowerbed. I planted them, took care of them, and then watched helplessly as something stole them from me. I wanted them back. When I looked at my flowers I wanted to see what I had envisioned, what I had worked for, and what I had planted. I was focusing on what I thought I should have instead of seeing what I did have. The flowers in my front yard looked fantastic. When I removed the thought of what should be there and stood back to look at what was there, it was perfectly beautiful.
How often in life do we overlook the beauty of what we have been given, because we are only focusing on the beauty that was taken from us?