I am the author of the blog and book series entitled The Moments We Stand. In them, I tell of my personal journey of healing and seeking peace after the murder of my husband Emmett.
On March 11, 2011 Emmett was shot and killed in a Walgreens parking lot by the husband of a secret mistress. I was made a widow at the age of 28 with 5 children—the youngest being just six weeks old.
My husband’s death left me with many messes to clean up—the hardest being my own broken soul as well as five others. I spent hours with detectives, Emmett’s business, a month long murder trial, and therapists . . . trying to piece together the broken pieces of the past. None of which helped me feel whole.
Through my trials I have learned the importance of a personal relationship with my Father in Heaven. I have witnessed many miracles through the devastation of so much heartache. I have found light in the darkest of moments—and I have found hope when I thought it was lost. It is through Christ that true healing has come.
As I have learned to embrace my life, I have gained a greater testimony of the Atonement of Jesus Christ and the strength it can be. I have come to find that the grace of Christ is powerful—not only in sin—but also in forgiveness and carrying you through some of your darkest moments. I have felt the embrace of my Heavenly Father through every obstacle. The tender mercies have given me hope to stand tall and write a new story. A story that has been very different than the one I had always dreamed.
I am remarried and reside in Idaho with my husband Shawn and our blended family of six children. We work hard every day to continue our journey of peace and finding the joy in life. I believe that every day is a gift—and in each one, I have learned to stand.
I am a mother. I am a daughter. I am a sister. I am a survivor of murder. I am a survivor of infidelity. Life has tried to pull me down but I choose to stand.
spouse murdered 11/2011