We ended up getting an offer on the house (See previous post My Search for Peace)…which was very low, so I countered. They countered back and I countered again. Of course they wanted to come see it again last night when I was traveling! This morning as I prepare to go ‘off grid’ for three days, I still have not heard back
I admit, I’ve had a few lapses of trust and faith… but I keep remembering my past experiences and the things I have felt. I keep choosing to have faith and trust and to reject fear.
Here’s a little bit of the story…
My son, on a mission in Chile, knew nothing about the house showing or the offer. When he emailed Monday, this was our conversation…
My son: I was walking back from the supermarket and this just popped into my head. Something happened with the house. I thought it had sold. Don’t ask me how, but I knew something was going to happen with the house today. Anything up?
Mom: We got an offer on the house on Friday night. It was pretty low. I countered back. I haven’t heard back yet. We will see.
My son: It´ll sell. 95% sure. I got a really, really weird jerk on my train of thought going down the escalator in Lider. I was thinking about something completely different. God let me know. It was about an hour and a half ago. It´ll sell.
I had spent a significant time praying and pondering about the problem on Saturday. I had felt good about countering back, but I had felt that the house would ultimately sell for a lower, very specific number, one that would require me to come up with a significant amount of money to get out of it.
“You need to let the money go and trust that God will take care of you.”
So how do you get to the point where you learn to trust Him like that? How do you learn to leap when He commands, not knowing where you will land?
A teacher once told me, “Faith is taking 3 steps in the dark before you see the light.”
Experience and Practice are the only way to learn this.
When we are put in situations that are difficult and the answers are not immediately apparent, we are forced to take those steps forward in faith, exerting our trust.
John 7:17– If any man will DO his will, he will KNOW the doctrine.
Last year the process of selling my house was so painful and NOT peaceful because I had my will AGAINST God. I did not TRUST Him. I wanted my answers NOW. I wanted it MY way. I was going to DO it my way, even if that meant being impatient and irritable with my family. I was in the wrong, and I felt that my behaviors and responses were justified.
Over and over again we have to be put in difficult circumstances that require us to turn to God and learn to trust. If we are willing to make changes in ourselves and to exercise that trust, and then in time as we LOOK, we will begin to see the patterns in our lives that show us that God does take care of us. I say ‘LOOK’ because those patterns aren’t necessarily obvious at first, and our frame of mind determines if our eyes are ‘OPEN’ to see them.
Our faith grows, not by having it easy, but by acting and watching the results.
So last night as I began to feel the pressure of being without cell service I reminded myself..
“When you don’t know what to do, go to the Lord. Ask for ideas of what to do. Be specific in your prayers… pray for strength, pray for courage to do what you need to do.”
I said, “I’m struggling with my faith. I fear it is faltering… ‘Help thou my unbelief’.’ Please help me know what to do and to feel peace.”
So…I guess I will find out in three days.