Blessings

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My husband and I always had music playing in our house.  After he first died, in fact up until recently, I would hardly ever listen to music…it was just too painful.   I am back to listening to more music (still not as much as I was, because I seem to start crying and can’t stop) and have found great answers and solace can come from it.
 
Recently, I was listening to a song called, “Blessings”, by Laura Story.  It has made me realize that ultimately I may be receiving the greatest blessing of all through this trial of losing my spouse.  It is still very hard for me to believe that…my faith is being tested beyond measure at times…but, I know that ultimately there is a plan for me and eventually I will know great happiness again. 
 
When I look back at the trials I have had in my life, often times I have had the opportunity to see the blessings that came from them. I am sure one day I will look back at this trial and see the blessings as I have from my other trials.  
 
Dieter F. Uchtdorf said, “We must learn that in the Lord’s plan, our understanding comes “line upon line, precept upon precept.” In short, knowledge and understanding come at the price of patience.
 
Often the deep valleys of our present will be understood only by looking back on them from the mountains of our future experience. Often we can’t see the Lord’s hand in our lives until long after trials have passed. Often the most difficult times of our lives are essential building blocks that form the foundation of our character and pave the way to future opportunity, understanding, and happiness.” (Continue in Patience, April 2010).
 
One of the greatest blessings I have received from this trial is spiritual growth.  I have a much greater understanding of the gospel of Jesus Christ.  I have an understanding that I don’t know I would have or could have gained any other way.  It is priceless to me.  I just wish that Paul could be here and still have the knowledge and understanding I now have.  
 
I have asked myself lately these words from the song “Blessings”:
 
What if my greatest disappointments or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise
 
I have attached the song “Blessings” and I have also attached the story behind the song.  The story she shares is about her husband and his struggles with his health.  It gives greater meaning to the song!   Click on the Links below…